"Dear God, I was terribly lost,
When the galaxies crossed,
And the sun went dark."
~ from "Galaxies" by Owl City ~
The song "Galaxies" by Owl City is full of emotion - both pain and joy, questions and yet determination.
Right now I'm at a place where I want and need that sort of attitude. I'm full of confusion as to what I need to do next in life. I feel "terribly lost." I was tempted to write a sad, hurting post earlier this morning about my uncertainty when it comes to finding that one next step God wants me to take...
But where is the joy and the determination? God has provided for me thus far. I'm blessed beyond measure! Do I think He's not going to guide me? Do I fear that He's leaving me in the dark?
Author MaryLu Tyndall wrote a beautiful post today about "Eternity and Provision in Every Step." In it she reminds us that God truly cares about us, and we should have deep peace knowing that God is with us at every step and that He has prepared things for us - a path, a purpose, and grace for the journey.
I can't help but wonder - when I feel neglected and uninformed and lost, is it because I'm looking at a fork in the road way up ahead? Maybe I'm expecting my next step to be one that takes me over there, when I should be focusing on what God wants me to do right here, right now.
And a few verses in the book of Hosea remind me that we don't always understand or appreciate what God is doing in our lives...
"When Israel was a child, then I loved him, and called my son out of Egypt....
I taught Ephraim also to go, taking them by their arms; but they knew not that I healed them. I drew them with cords of a man, with bands of love: and I was to them as they that take off the yoke on their jaws, and I laid meat unto them."
~ Hosea 11:1, 3-4 ~
I don't think any of us can know during our lives on earth just how much God does for us. Just think...
"...they knew not that I healed them."
God cradled the people of Israel, protecting them and providing for them. But they didn't recognize that God healed them, or that He acted out of love for them.
I'm sure I'm too often guilty of the same, and how it must break God's heart.
I still have so much to learn about trusting in the Lord, about seeking His guidance but also living for Him where I am, and recognizing His goodness to me, and resting in His plan and His timing.
So I sing with Adam Young -
"Oh, telescope, keep an eye on my only hope,
Lest I blink and get swept off the narrow road."